i --should be-- happy

june.
6th month.
i always love june. i named it as 'a wish-come-true month'.. it's because in this month i could ask everything i want., as a birthday present.

and now it's june.
the same june.
but not the same happiness.

few weeks ago i found out that the guy who i have crush with is having gf. ouch! that's hurt. as if it doesn't enough., in next few days im gonna meet him --or them?-- in a ceremony.hha. i can't breath!
few days ago iv got fever.terrible headache.and it caused me have a terrible outlook.
how can i be pretty with this condition?how can i be strong enough to see them?even i can't imagine it.if only you could see how do i look now. i bet he'll say,"lucky me to dump her..!!"
--read my posting before.,about 'stand up for beauty'..--


it's june.
my birthmonth.
but the woman who gave me birth was apssed away.
this month is 10th month since that day.the day when she passed away in front of me.the day that i won't forget for the whole my life.

i have less love for june this year.with all these happen to me., at the same momment., can i be as happy as other june before.?can i.?
let me recall them for you..

*i'm ill and have to survive alone. do anything by myself.no one touch my forehead to get know my condition on that day.
*that guy has gf now.and i'm gonna meet him with this ridiculous condition.
*ah..sorry.,but i can't mention the last reason. you knew it already. and i'm too fragile to tell you more.

i have less love for june this year.
ok. i put correction on my statement.
even i have no 'june-passion' for this year. i don't know how i'll get through that day.
that day will be same day as other day.

birthday will be less of meaning without a woman who gave you a birth.


--CePe--