it feels GOOD

I'm just coming home from my friend's party.
and yes i met him there.
when i came to the party.,i pray not to meet him.
as soon as my pray finished.,
i saw him.
gosh.
I'm not ready.
what if he were with his gf.?
may i ask earth to simply eat me.?

well., so what did i do just walking down to him and pretend doing something with my mobile phone.
so i have no compulsory to say hello and so did he.
but later on i felt regret.why i did so.?
i dress up and make up like this just because i know that he'll be here.
i just wanna show him how pretty i am this night.
so he'll be regret.
regret for kicking me out.

--no.,I'm not flirting.that's will be nothing for him.he's taken already.,right.? to understand more about my reason., please read my blog before..--

my eyes scanned the room.
looking for him.
and can't find him.
damn.

then i found him.
but still not greet him.
i wanna ensure first that he wasn't with his gf.

ok.
area clear.
then i texted him to ask whether he came or not.
--hey., im still pretend that i don't see him around., right.?--
for short.,
we met.
just for seconds.
since he's about going home.

then i found myself relieved.
i met him.
so he could know how good my look tonight.
plus.,
he's not with his gf.

well.,
what I'm afraid of the most is gone now.
and i could pass it well.
--standing ovation--

there's such a satisfaction in me.
is it ego.?
ahh.,
whatsoever it is., but i could smile and have no fear for more.

and now.,
i could be free to let him go..
i could be happy for his happiness..
yes.,
for god sake..
for myself..

salute..!!!



--CePe--